My Story
"I just want to do God's will," These are the word the late Dr. Martin Luther King Jr spoke and that statement exemplifies my desire in life. There's no greater satisfaction than living for Christ Jesus! My bushiness in life is to glorify Him in all that I do.
Born on March 28th 1991, like many young boys and girls, my birth certificate did not include my fathers name. Raised up in Alton, IL, I seen the struggles of my mother trying to raise up her children. Witnessing verbal and domestic abuse, as a child, affected me and my perception toward men. Although there were men, such as uncles, who would come periodically in my life, I was mostly raised by women.
In search for what it meant to be a man, I came across my first role model, Adolf Hitler. The power of his influence on others and his desire to rule other nations intrigued me and I began to conform to his ways of destruction. Over time my mind became more perverse. Not only did I find pleasure in violence, pornography became my other secret pleasure.
In this early chapter of my life, the year 2005, everything came to a climax. With the feelings of hatred, hurt, depression, confusion, and loneliness I contemplated suicide. I prayed for God to take my life and kill me. Since He didn't answer that prayer, I took matters into my own hands, and tried to commit suicide. My attempt was a failure and with burning hatred, I became angry with God.
A professing atheist at this point in my life, I was determined to prove God and Christianity was false. During my intense studying, the anger and hatred I had began to evaporate. Little did I know, God's words were changing me.
There was a New Years service December 31st 2006, after much persistence from my grandmother, I went to church. It was here that God grabbed my attention in a profound way! The next week I gave my life to Christ Jesus.
Ever since then it has been a journey of growing from faith to faith. I've been though much inner healing and deliverance from the strongholds of pornography, rebellion, and many other inner vows I made. Father God has reconciled so many things in my life including the love for my earthly father. I'm a witness to God's restoring and redeeming power.
As Christ Jesus prayed in John 17:4- I have glorified You on the earth. I have finished the work which You have give Me to do." I too want to glorify Christ Jesus here on the earth, that the Father my be glorified as well.
Born on March 28th 1991, like many young boys and girls, my birth certificate did not include my fathers name. Raised up in Alton, IL, I seen the struggles of my mother trying to raise up her children. Witnessing verbal and domestic abuse, as a child, affected me and my perception toward men. Although there were men, such as uncles, who would come periodically in my life, I was mostly raised by women.
In search for what it meant to be a man, I came across my first role model, Adolf Hitler. The power of his influence on others and his desire to rule other nations intrigued me and I began to conform to his ways of destruction. Over time my mind became more perverse. Not only did I find pleasure in violence, pornography became my other secret pleasure.
In this early chapter of my life, the year 2005, everything came to a climax. With the feelings of hatred, hurt, depression, confusion, and loneliness I contemplated suicide. I prayed for God to take my life and kill me. Since He didn't answer that prayer, I took matters into my own hands, and tried to commit suicide. My attempt was a failure and with burning hatred, I became angry with God.
A professing atheist at this point in my life, I was determined to prove God and Christianity was false. During my intense studying, the anger and hatred I had began to evaporate. Little did I know, God's words were changing me.
There was a New Years service December 31st 2006, after much persistence from my grandmother, I went to church. It was here that God grabbed my attention in a profound way! The next week I gave my life to Christ Jesus.
Ever since then it has been a journey of growing from faith to faith. I've been though much inner healing and deliverance from the strongholds of pornography, rebellion, and many other inner vows I made. Father God has reconciled so many things in my life including the love for my earthly father. I'm a witness to God's restoring and redeeming power.
As Christ Jesus prayed in John 17:4- I have glorified You on the earth. I have finished the work which You have give Me to do." I too want to glorify Christ Jesus here on the earth, that the Father my be glorified as well.
