Weeping in the Morning

One of the scriptures I love is Psalm 108:2 that says, “I will awaken the dawn!” Oh how lovely it is to awake the dawn with the praises of the Lord!! Another verse is Psalm 92:1-2- It is good to give thanks to the LORD, and sing praise to Your name, O Most High; To declare Your lovingkindness in the morning, and Your faithfulness every night.

​It’s a beautiful thing to declare God’s faithfulness every night! How lovely it is for the praises of God to always be upon our lips! Yet there are seasons in life, when you desire to do these things, but it feels so hard to attain. 

Have you ever heard a preacher speak about how he or she gets up early in the morning to read the word of God, spending time in His presence? You hear those words, but they bring no excitement instead you just want to weep. You long to awaken the dawn with praise, but your praises are evaporated from your breath and nothing comes out. You heart drops and you cry, just longing.

I’ve recently come from such a season. It began in early November. Previously waking up in the mornings was a pleasure and I looked forward to opening the word of God! The cultivation of relationship with God was awesomeness!! I would wake up before the sun shone singing new songs to the LORD on my guitar. Taking His word and singing it back to Him! I enjoyed this, however, the cares of this world would soon begin test me.

The external cares of this world bust opened the doors to internal worries of my mind. Areas of my life that I thought I was strong in proved to falter during a tumultuous season of test. I no longer awoke the dawn with praises, but dreaded the daylight. It was a battle for my thoughts to be taken captive to the obedience of Christ Jesus. My devotionals became like a battleground. Becoming tired of the test, I felt myself groaning for the redemption of my body (Romans 8:23). Instead of awakening the dawn, I would weep in the morning. Yet the LORD kept me!

It was during this season of test that instead of awaking the dawn with praises, I would come to God weeping, my heart in turmoil, and in my weakness saying:

Psalm 61:1-2- Hear my cry, O God; attend unto my prayer. From the end of the earth will I cry to You, when my heart is overwhelmed; lead me to the rock that is higher than I.  

Sometimes we are not able to awaken the morning with praises. Sometimes we don’t declare the faithfulness of God every night. Instead there are times when we cry to God weeping as Hannah wept! Her lips moved and no words came out, but she prayed within her heart. Sometimes all we can say is God please hear my cry and attend to my prayer, because I’m desperate.
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We may not be able to awaken the dawn everyday with praises, but awaken the heart of God in desperation! If you are going through a test, remember the word of God! Though the storms of life come, those who keep the words of Christ Jesus are like a house built on solid foundation, they will not fall!
Soon the season will be over and you once again will be able to awaken the dawn!

Psalm 30:11- You have turned for me my mourning into dancing; You have put off my sackcloth and clothed me with gladness.