Serving is something I love and if I had unlimited amount of energy and time, I would be the first to jump at many serving opportunities. The funny thing is, usually what I serve at is what I know I would really enjoy doing. How would you feel if what you volunteered for was more than you expected?
I had a great opportunity to serve at a church in the south suburbs of Chicago I went there with the intention on serving, so I was expecting to work. My first task was to mop the floor.
This was a very wide room and the floor was really big, but no problem right. To mop the floor it would take somewhere between 25-30 minutes. Everything was ok until I received the instructions. I was to mop a 10 x 10 section of the floor and after every 10 x 10 section, I would have to go change the mop water and continue this process until the entire room was finished.
When I heard this, and seen how small a 10 x 10 section was compared to the entire room, I was thinking, “You have to be kidden me!”
It’s at that time when you decide, “do I change my mind and say no or serve feeling angry.
At that time the Holy Spirit reminded me of a conversation I had the day before about how God looks at how we respond to situations or circumstances. How we respond to someone is key to the outcome. Our response is the cause and the outcome is the effect.
So I decided to say yes and follow the instructions, no matter how tedious they were. Once I began I all was well until after the third trip of pouring out seemingly clean water and refilling it with more water. I began to reason with myself and saying no one is watching me, I’ll just mop 12 x 12 or 20 x 20, no one will ever know, but I didn’t have a good conscious doing that.
Just doing three 10 x 10 sections took me over 30 minutes and I had much more to go. Seeing what lies ahead caused me to get emotional. I felt like I was being used. I felt angry and like there was a war literally raging inside of me to cut corners and serve by doing my own thing. The feeling was like someone was dragging me down. My adrenaline raising up, and discontentment being exhaled at every breath. My flesh was warring against, what I said yes to do.
I began telling myself, “It’s for God’s glory, it’s for God’s glory. I’m doing this for You Lord,” Even though that was good to say, I didn’t feel good. I didn’t feel good about serving with an angry heart. I desired to serve the Lord with a joyful heart, with peace, with a smile on my face. Not even, music could help ease the pain I was feeling inside.
I never thought I would come to an end of myself by mopping a floor, but God can use whatever He needs to have you call on Him. I began to cry and pray. While praying my chest felt like it was ripping in two.
I cried out to God and said, “Father God, I desire to serve you cheerfully and with joy, but I confess, I only want to serve the way I think is best. LORD, the problem is not the instructions, it’s my pride wanting to disobey and cut corners. I don’t want to submit. This is the truth. I desire to serve, but pride is keeping me from serving you with a happy heart. My God, I repent for my response towards You. Please forgive me and teach me what You want me to learn, help me to grow in every area, and help me to receive and respond rightly to Your words. Holy Spirit please grant me peace to serve as Jesus Christ served. With desire, but more importantly for Your glory Father. I am just a wretched man, but Christ Jesus, You have made me righteous. You are the joy of my salvation. Please serve though me. In Jesus’ name I pray. Amen and it is so.
After that prayer, God gave me an amazing peace that flooded my heart. The Holy Spirt put songs in my heart! The songs were so awesomeness that I turned off my music. I began singing while serving. The LORD refreshed me and I began to not only work faster, but was enjoying mopping the 10 x 10 areas. Actually the statement 10 x 10 became the words of the day for me.
I praise God! That we have a Father who loves us so much that He desires to lavish us with His Spirit and He desires to work with us in all that we do.
When you clean a large area in small amounts it takes time, but each small area is taken care of. In this life the LORD is constantly teaching me in 10 x 10 increments. The time of servanthood allowed me to see much about my character and how much I Neeeeeeed God! To really rely on the guidance of the Holy Spirit, and live in the Word of Christ Jesus.
Come to an end of self and let the LORD clean you up! It’s sooo worth it!!
Matthew 20:28- Just as the Son of Man came not to be waited on but to serve, and to give His life as a ransom for many [the price paid to set them free].
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